This weekend was such an amazing weekend. Spending some quality time with the family - watching my little ones
test the waters of so many new experiences. In going to the mall with them & stopping into a cafe for a snack, turned out to be another cool learning experience in my own journey. Who would have thought that an every day event like getting a muffin & juice with the kids would unfold such insight...
So we are standing in line, (anyone with 2 toddlers who are tired & hungry knows that waiting in line for anything can be challenging enough) & as I am trying to wrangle my angels into line & to gather them from patrons tables that border the lineup. As they are curious about everyone & what they are doing, eating & drinking....I am trying to figure out in the quickest way possible what we will all have to snack on.
As I run down the 4 board menu with over a 100 items, feeling a little hurried, I notice my 21mth old daughter who is fearless of everything, is climbing the back of an empty wooden high chair that is sitting at someone table behind me. As I turn & bend down to get her & apologize to the young lady sitting there fixing her books that were shuffled in the process of the high chair smacking against the table....I noticed (unknowingly & just because my face was right over top of it) a book that must have been her daily journal. Written in big block letters across the page was "FIND SELF?"
So as I sit down and feed the little ones, I remember being there in her exact seat. Sitting in a cafe, with my journals, wondering & analyzing where my life was going, who would I end up with, what was life all about, why am I here, what is my purpose and who am I? This young girl on the outside looked like any other 20 something, attractive, hopeful eyes, promising smile.
I wanted so much to sit and talk with her, to tell her some things I wish I had been told at that age. I remember being embarrassed about all my confusing life questions. I did not have anyone to talk to about all of these confusing emotions & questions. The things that every 20' something goes through on their path to realization. When they decide to start to define themselves on their own terms, and release themselves away from their parents view of who they should be. I remember thinking about the core things I believe in now, just more evolved through my learning. It made me wonder how many other young women are out there questioning their existence, their purpose & their path....it made me feel compassion from knowing I had been there & remember how most days felt... confusing, life fluttering around you, life carrying you on its way - not your way.
So, I guess with this message my hope is that if we remember our innate ability to feel compassion every day. To understand the shoes our neighbours walk in. In finding your way along your path you will be sent circumstances that allow you to see your own personal growth & expansion. In this growth there is also an opportunity to expand our own compassion, empathy, & desire to be there for others. Your friends, your children, your community. We are all here to connect & reconnect. To experience the expansion from our own growth within the world. This powerful place we call home - we are powerful to experience it all...We are all trying to find our way.
Have an amazing Monday & remember that you are always right there! You were never really lost - even though it may seem that way sometimes. Take time to connect with your true self, inner self, inner being, your spirit - whatever you want to call it...it is waiting for you!
Peace Out,
Love & Blessings,
Joanna
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